So, I just sat down and talked with God and he gave me a profound statement. I asked him if I was going through the storm because of something I'd done wrong. I wanted to know if I'd simply been so bad that I'd once again have to endure such a large mountain to climb.
At first, I really second guessed myself and thought these questions to be a clear observation of where I am in my life but through prayer God showed me different. You see, my lense was blurry. I was looking through tainted glass. I could not see clearly. You see, after prayer my father showed me that I'm actually the total opposite of all that I thought about myself and my current state of being.
He assured me that I'm just that GOOD. In fact, I'm just that GREAT. He allows me such mountains to climb because he knows his plan for me. And MUCH is required of those whom MUCH is given.
And, he reminds me on the as needed basis that all of my trials are meant to make me strong. Stronger in him and in my faith in him. God's got so much for me to do that he'd allow such loads for me to carry in order for my faith muscles to strengthen.
Not in a physical sense but in the spiritual sense. You see, God has a way of strengthening us in times of despair. Though you can't see it, he's working us out. Kinda like a good workout at the gym. You go and do your routine daily and though you don't see instant results, with each day that goes by your muscles grow stronger and stronger. As they do, you increase your workout according to your current strength.
So much is the same with faith. Though we can't see it, with each trial that comes our way we are prompted to test the spirit of God and put our faith in him according to what we know is true of him at that time in our lives. Each episode prepares us for the next. Each time he brings us through something our muscles strengthen and the load increases as we grow in our faith. Each time seeming heavier than the last.
Now, don't misunderstand. We can not physically move a mountain but spiritually our FAITH can. God is the actual one who moves the mountain for us. HE is the force behind all of our spiritual workouts. He does the things that manifest often times in material form. This could be in the form of a financial blessing, cure of a sickness, healing of a soul, mending of a marriage, covering over a reckless child, etc. He's the force behind all of these things. But our FAITH is what puts things into action for him to be able to perform such miracles in our lives.
So when I look at where I am at this time in my walk with Christ and I'm prompted to think of this trial as a negative thing. I'm glad that he reassured me of the exact opposite. I'm just exercising my faith muscles. Growing to the next level in him. Preparing to do the work he has for me to do and I can't do it on the strength I had yesterday. I need more. So with that being said.....IT'S WORKOUT TIME.
So thank that...Even at my worst HE'S AT HIS BEST. Thanking him for the reassurance.